Confused

Well first id have to say that im confused whether i still love mah bf or not.....i really dont understand mah feeling for him ne more...i get pissed of at him most of the time; we fight a lot; we call each other names; i tell him that i hate him all the time; i try and kick him out but he never leaves when i try to....and the worse thing is that when i talk to other guys and start for a while after i start to like them..even tho i have a bf i feel like i want to be with someone that will treat me better and understand me better...but then again i dont want to do that because i dont wanna cheat and lower myself to the same thing that he did for me...what i mean by that is that he cheated on me once and i havent gotten over that....so i guess i want comments and advice or whatever...or to see if there are ne ppl out there that feel the same or something well if i didnt make ne sense or u dont get it just write back or e-mail me...thanks for those who have read and took the time to read what i had to say thanks

~shawty~